"The East African migrant community feels safer to me than middle class
white culture. This became clear to me when I visited an Eritrean
restaurant in Dallas, Texas, with my then four-year old twin daughters.
Blond haired, blue eyed and weary from being cooped up on a plane, they
were a sight scurrying around the restaurant where diners were nearly all
Eritrean males from the town of Asmara where I was born. I tried to stop my
daughters from playing hide-and-go-seek around other tables. I felt it
appropriate that they respect others 'private space'
An elderly Eritrean man rebuked me kindly. "Let them go where they like. We
are all Eritreans. They are safe here." They were soon sharing scoops of
food at different tables. The Eritrean and Ethiopian men I know carry over
to this country the custom of inviting anyone to share their dish of food,
whether or not they know them. They are ready to welcome any child as their
own to their dinner table or invite a stranger--with a simple welcoming
gesture--to join their meal"
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Learning to Live Comfortably in My White Male Skin
March 21, 2014
by Samuel Mahaffy
Samuel Mahaffy is a man coming clean about his prejudice against white
males in this culture--particularly surprising because he is one.
The white guys in pickups with big wheels just make me nervous. What is it
about being with East African men that leaves me feeling warm and
comfortable?
It has been nearly 45 years since I left my country-of-birth in East Africa
and I am still struggling with trusting white males in this culture. What's
particularly weird about that is I am one. I own that it is deeply
engrained in my world-view to trust African men from my part of the world
more than I trust white males. That is a prejudice that I wrestle with
every day.
What does it say about me? About this culture? About the African culture I
came from?
This fear astounded me when I first confronted it.
This comes up over and over for me. I work with many educated, white,
professional colleagues who acknowledge their fear of going into 'black'
neighborhoods. This fear astounded me when I first confronted it.
It was with great excitement that I invited my university colleagues to
join me at an East African restaurant in Seattle, Washington and share the
food I grew up with. Over a delightful dinner--from a shared common dish--we
enjoyed spicy vegetarian and meat dishes popular in Eritrea and Ethiopia. A
Ph.D. social scientist friend of mine leaned quietly toward me and confided
that, while she was thoroughly enjoying the food, she would "never feel
safe coming to this neighborhood on her own."
This is an ethnically-diverse neighborhood adjacent to a university. When I
come here, I sink into hearing East African languages, smelling spices from
around the world, and noticing that the African men make direct eye contact
and are present in a different way. I feel at home here.
The East African migrant community feels safer to me than middle class
white culture. This became clear to me when I visited an Eritrean
restaurant in Dallas, Texas, with my then four-year old twin daughters.
Blond haired, blue eyed and weary from being cooped up on a plane, they
were a sight scurrying around the restaurant where diners were nearly all
Eritrean males from the town of Asmara where I was born. I tried to stop my
daughters from playing hide-and-go-seek around other tables. I felt it
appropriate that they respect others 'private space'.
An elderly Eritrean man rebuked me kindly. "Let them go where they like. We
are all Eritreans. They are safe here." They were soon sharing scoops of
food at different tables. The Eritrean and Ethiopian men I know carry over
to this country the custom of inviting anyone to share their dish of food,
whether or not they know them. They are ready to welcome any child as their
own to their dinner table or invite a stranger--with a simple welcoming
gesture--to join their meal.
Where does my tendency to mistrust white males come from?
After some decades of therapy, it is still not entirely clear to me. It is
triggered mostly when I am around macho men who carry power and authority
like a veil around them. It is a wrap so different from the warm embracing
chiffon cloth that African men sometimes drape over their shoulders. The
white guys in pickups with big wheels just make me nervous. I have found
them to be men who are quick to anger and otherwise show few emotions. They
are also men of few words.
I own this as my stereotype.
Gratefully, I am in a recovery process as I meet good men who are able to
stand in intimate friendship relationships, carry their part of deep
conversations, and steward with care the earth, their families and those
around them.
Over the decades, I found lots of ways to be in my white skin without
really stepping into the white-male world that I entered when I came to the
U.S. Mostly, I avoided it by forging deep friendships with women and with
men from other cultures. Gratefully, I am in a recovery process as I meet
good men who are able to stand in intimate friendship relationships, carry
their part of deep conversations, and steward with care the earth, their
families and those around them. These men are important for my healing
process and my claiming of my identity as a white male.
What is it that makes me trusting of the community of men I know from East
Africa? It was a startling realization for me that I would trust these
African men with my young daughters more than I would trust most men I meet
on the street in the mostly-white Caucasian city I call home. It is hard to
define. There is a sense of relational responsibility and an air of
gentleness that I trust.
There is a gentle presence that welcomes connection.
These are men who acknowledge relationships. They value relationships above
personal agenda. Eritrean men are from a culture where the village
celebrates together and the village weeps together.
Maybe it is the sense of the importance of the village and communal life
that makes these men seem safer to me. It is just not the individualistic
world of private property, private thoughts and pursuit of personal agendas
that I find permeating much of the white male community of which I am a
part.
Somehow, I am learning to integrate the soul of an African into this white
male world. As I take my place as an elder in this mostly white world I
find ways to deepen my relationships with the white males in my life. It is
a deep healing to begin to step into deep trust relationships with men from
this culture. I am discovering a wealth of wisdom and the blessing of new
and intimate male friendships.
Maybe this male culture is changing or maybe I am changing. Slowly, my
crafted stereotypes break down. I find myself able to bring into these
relationships some of the richness of the world of African men that I have
mostly left behind but still retreat into.
It is an integrating step that I must take for the sake of my son, for the
sake of my daughters and for the sake of myself. I want us all to live life
beyond the differences that divide us and the stereotypes that keep us
apart.
Finally, I am learning to live comfortably in my white male skin!
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